I spent the weekend at my aunt Rhiannon’s house, it was a good time as always :) friday we ventured down to Massachusetts with her friend Gary and went to six flags new england. It was such a long, fun day! My favorite ride is still the bizarro, with goliath coming in 2nd. I’m a coaster freak. I dragged rhi on to this thing called the slingshot. We’re strapped in to a ball type thing and are bungeed really high into the air. I put my feet as high as I could on the bar so that we would spin more. When i got home yesterday my chinchillas were so excited. I walked in my room and Luna starting running around barking happily. When i opened her their cage she jumped right on my shoulder and gave me love nips on my cheek. Today was my last day working at the great escape. I have to go job hunting asap, it’s gunna suck not saving or having money for a little bit! I am sleeping over at my boyfriend jesse’s house again tonight.
My friend tiffany covered for me and I spent the night at my boyfriend’s dads house. It felt good falling asleep and waking up with him. I’m glad I took the chance and am dating him.
If you were ever a girl that people whispered about and laughed at as you walked by…. That feeling never goes away. You’re suspicious of everyone around you having a good time, thinking it’s at your expense.
I was in a funk last night, kind of still am..I kept getting flashbacks of my episodes and self-harm, and got thinking about a lot of stuff. After work I took a blade and walked up to the pavilion where all the picnic tables are and scratched at a table for awhile so that I wouldn’t self harm. I don’t know why I got such a bad random urge. I started to have an anxiety attack later when I got home and my boyfriend came over and calmed me down. He didn’t know about it until today. And I told him about some of the flashbacks. If i can I think im staying with him at his house tonight.